I came home from school 4.5 hours ago, convinced I was going to study my head off. I've gotten through half a lecture, it's just not happening tonight! I was reflecting on old facebook photos (deep and profound, I know), and realized how much my life has changed over the past few years.
There's a lot I miss. I miss snowboarding 3-4 days a week, I miss landing tricks on my wakeboard in the summertime, I miss rock climbing, I miss dodgeball on Wednesday nights from midnight-2AM at the old church building by Helaman Halls freshman year of college. I miss having a job that brought home a paycheck every other week. I miss my dreadlocks, I miss long drives in my Jeep wrangler, I miss torn blue jeans. I miss playing the drums, I miss rock music, I miss hackysack and Chipotle with my high school band.
But I've gained so much more! I love my husband. The very best thing that has ever happened to me was meeting him. I love our little beat up Honda Civic that we haven't washed since we bought it two years ago, and that leaks oil like crazy. I love learning how the human body works, hearing how bacteria and diseases assault it, and equipping myself with the tools to go out and stop those things from happening. I love hugging patients, I love translating for people when they come to the doctor. I love medical school. I love racquetball with my husband on Saturdays. I love country music. I love the piano, and hymns on Sunday mornings. I love opera. I love walking with my husband every morning. I love finishing exams. I love sleep like I've never loved it before, because you appreciate things more when they are hard to come by! I love my family, and I love spending time with them, especially as recent events have shown me that such time really is more limited than you think.
So I've traded my sporty-hippie-rocker lifestyle for an incredible marriage and medical school, the challenge and reward of a lifetime. And you know what? I am as happy now as I was then.
